Perhaps, I Am Searching for the Nameless One
Have you ever felt lost, but didn’t know what exactly was missing?
Not the loss of an object, nor the absence of someone.
But as if you've lost yourself—your identity, your way of thinking, your purpose, your determination, even the principles you once held so tightly.
Everything feels empty, like a quiet war inside this small body.
You don’t know who to confide in, or where to go to find a cure.
As if, in this moment, only you remain.
Have you ever felt left behind?
While others are already far ahead, you haven’t even taken your first step.
Like missing the ship at the dock, even though the ticket was already in your hand.
Ironically, you don’t even know where the ship is headed, or where it will eventually anchor.
Everyone seems to have a destination, a place to pause.
But me? I’ve lived twenty-one years and still have no idea where I’m going.
What I feel now is just one thing: a deep sense of being left behind, and helplessness.
Why do others already know what they want to be, while I don’t even know where to start?
Maybe this is just a thought for today.
Because I once heard, each day we live today is a day taken from our future.
Perhaps life demands that we have a goal, a dream to pursue.
But… what does life really want from us?
Is there anyone who can teach us—like a teacher in school—how life is supposed to be lived?
Even so, there is one thing I still believe in:
When you truly have a goal, a target, or a dream,
the thought of giving up begins to fade.
Even the idea of surrendering feels foreign.
Just believe—that your future life can be better than your present,
if you work for it sincerely.
Keep walking, even if your back is bent.
Keep walking, even if you must crawl.
Keep walking, even if you don’t know what awaits ahead.
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